Sideways

These feelings won't go away. They be knocking me sideways. I keep thinking any moment that time will take them away. These feelings won't go away. You know it ain't easy for these here thoughts to leave me. There are no words to describe it in French or in English. [citizen cope]

That wheel-churning cherub has been loud the last few days. I don't know why. But it's driving me mad. I'm finding it easy to walk away - no urge for contact - but impossible to forget and just let go. I don't know how to move forward without the noise of that cherub: Maybe. Someday. Sometimes he screams. I don't understand it. If this is that path I'm meant to be on, then Universe, please let me pass through. Make these feelings go away; they're knocking me sideways.