Monday, August 23, 2010

I love you.

She sighs, with the heaviness of her heart trembling in her breath.

Did that just happen? I mean - all of it?

I can't imagine. I can't imagine my life. In one moment you leave for a happy occasion and in the next you find yourself saying "I'll see you in the morning" when that morning nearly never comes.

And you find yourself with anger, and fear and sadness...and blindness. I wish I would have... And why didn't you call? And how could you? And don't you dare ever leave me!

Only moments pass in the cycle of life and a happy occasion occurs until you are hit with another bullet. You tell me what? And now. And my heart sinks. And it deepens. And why didn't you tell me this before? Why didn't you tell us before? Why don't you tell me more? Why are you thanking me for sharing YOUR stories?!

I always wanted to know. But I had no idea. Your tears shake me. It all makes so much sense.

And this just moments and moments after I find out more on the other pair of the duo. And it comes full circle now. And it all makes sense. And why won't you talk about it? You know I know now. Why won't you tell me? I want to know more of you. You mean more to me than anything in the world, in spirits and flowers and life and limbs and I would do anything for your life - why won't you share yours with me? It makes me love you more. It makes me understand. It makes me feel.

My heart is heavy, but lightens with understanding and time.

I take unto me the pain of others. I want to understand their plights. I want to put it into perspective and focus. I want to love you like you love me. I want you to love me like I love you. I want to understand you and love you more. I want to listen and learn and know and I want relationships to blossom.

My heart is heavy, but it strengthens when it aches.

A Libra takes the pain of others unto themselves. I will always repeat myself as a quintessential Libra in all respects. I will take your pain and I hope to understand it and feel it and be with you. My love is forever and loyal and growing. Just tell me. Call me. Whatever you all need, I want to know.

There's more to everyone than they're willing to share. And it's those parts that explain it all.

3 comments:

Ashli said...

<3 This is written beautifully.

also, do I need to come beat someone up for you?

Cellar Door said...

No. Hugs for them all, I think.

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